With Jason turning 35 on Sunday, I suddenly have been having issues with life going by faster than it used to seem to. How can I be old enough to have a husband who is 35? 35 is old!
Well, it used to seem old, but not anymore.
Looking at Ben's baby pictures the other day, it dawned on me that I cannot remember that far back. I need the pictures to remind me what he looked like as baby, and I'll have to watch the videos to remind me how he would move and what he sounded like. Why is it so hard to remember? I can't remember my own childhood, or even just a few years ago, very vividly. It's enough to make me cry.
How can I be almost 30? I just finished high school!
10 years is not as long of a time as it used to seem. I am not really looking forward to the boys moving up in school, because if they are getting older, then I am too. I'll be less and less needed as time goes on, then what? What do I do when I am not needed?
Oh please make time stand still, or even go backwards so I can do it all again. But with some changes. Wouldn't everyone make some changes if they could do it all again?
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Oh yes, how time does move so quicky...As you kids grow older and your kids grow older we get new attitudes....like "my kids are getting older, I am not"...at least that is what I say. Then you start your quest to be "younger". No, you can't be younger, but you don't have to be "old" either. I tell my husband all the time....I hope I'm not as old as you when I get your age" because he is always moaning and complaining about this and that. Yes, I would definitely make some changes if I could go back, but since I can't go back I try to make the most of what I have now. When your kids have babies you will begin to remember how they looked as babies and things they did or said as little boys. Wait until you think "hmmmm...50 is NOT old! My husband will be 50 in 3 years! How can I be married to a 50 year old!? So what am I doing? I am going to plan a huge 50th birthday party for him. You will learn as time goes on to celebrate what you do have and who you are at the moment. Yes, I would change some things but only if I could keep the wisdom that I have gained as time goes on......I have also learned that I am still "needed" also, whether it be from my kids (who are grown), my parents who need me now, and my grandchildren who light up when they see me. Yes, I am still needed. I think we are always needed by someone. So don't be down about growing older, you just take the bull by the horns and do different things to make you feel good about yourself and the wonderful family you are raising. Then when your babies are grown you sit back and see the wonderful job you did as a mommy.
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